[The title of my blog is borrowed from one of James Taylor's songs - Shower the People You Love with Love]
We visited a new church on Sunday. Can’t say that we’ll be going back. We’ve had a hard time finding a church that “fits” us since Jason died. Some of the things that make up the organization and practice of churches seems so trivial any more…but, that’s a topic for another post.
Anyway, at one point in his sermon the pastor said, “You can’t live your lives for your kids.” Now, by the time he got to this point, I had pretty much checked out mentally. I can’t even tell you how he got to the place of saying that line in his sermon. He went on to say how he has four kids, but doesn’t let them run his life. I think he was trying to emphasize spiritual balance and the importance of putting God first in your life. Honestly, he was so all over the map, I couldn’t really tell you for sure the point of the message.
Now, I agree that one must have balance in life. If one area of our lives takes up much more of our time than it should or becomes of greater importance to us than it should, other areas can suffer and our lives can become out of balance. If one area has much greater importance than it should, the more out of balance our lives can become. It can get to the point of being unhealthy or to the point where we lose something we love.
Any area can cause our lives to be out of balance – work, hobby, television, video games, relationships. A person who is a workaholic can lose an important connection to his or her spouse or significant other. A parent who focuses an inordinate amount of time on the children can cause the other parent to feel unimportant. Focusing too much on activities or friendships outside of the family can cause our families to suffer. Even church activities, done in the name of God, can cause an imbalance. Growing up as a preacher’s kid, I’d have to say that we kids all knew where we fit in the whole scheme of things, below God and the church. [It's fairly common for preachers' kids to feel second (or third or fourth) place to "the church."]
Perhaps you only can’t “live your lives for your kids,” but we can certainly cherish them, listen to them, spend quality time with them. Our children are our greatest gifts. They grow up so fast; before you know it, they are grown. These times never come again. And if your child dies, all you have are memories of bygone times with your child.
I read a blog this morning that really touched my heart. The author lost her son to pediatric cancer when he was three. Her encouragement to cherish your children is so poignant. On this day, his 6th birthday, she writes:
I miss the days where I lived carefree and unaware. I miss going to the party store and picking out candy and balloons. I miss living a life where I didn’t even give a thought to pediatric cancer. But more than any of that – I miss watching my son, for 3 years now, blow out the candles on his birthday cake. I miss crying out of joy instead of sadness. I miss Tanner. More and more with every passing second.
So, log off, put your phones down, and enjoy the moments you have. You may have only one. You may have a million. You need to relish them, you need to be present in them, you need to be so full with joy that you can’t keep the tears in your eyes. The greatest gift I ever had gave me that, on his birthday.
© 2013 Rebecca R. Carney