This blog is written about grief from one woman's perspective - mine. It is not meant to be a blanket guideline for grief. It is my hope, though, that some insight or understanding for bereaved parents or ones who deeply grieve may be obtained from sharing my experiences following the death of our son, Jason.
As my main source, I have gleaned writings from the journals I have written since the week after the accident (some entries have been slightly modified for clarification). For those entries gleaned from my journals, I have noted the date at the beginning of the blog. Anything without a "journal date" is written current-date. If there are notes at the end of a blog entry following a ~~ delineation, those are current-day comments on a dated journal entry.
In an effort to promote understanding, I have not shied away from things I wrote that may be construed as negative. I want to be honest with what I was experiencing at the time, but I don't want to be harsh..and I would never, either intentionally or unintentionally hurt anyone we knew at that time. (I have changed most names or used initials when referring to individuals, and those names that have been changed are marked with an asterisk (*).)
If something sounds harsh, just remember I am communicating what it was like for me at that moment. Raw emotions following a tragic loss run the gamut of practically every emotion imaginable. Emotions and reactions can be incredibly strong...and sometimes not very pretty. There is no tidy pattern for grief.
Please try to listen to the heart of a bereaved parent...
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