Ripples in a pond

From my journal March 14, 2002:

How I wish I could go back and change things…things over the years…do them better.

I know that Jason knew he was loved. He would never have been as secure as he was if he didn’t.

His heart was right with God. I know that. So was Alina’s. They are in the presence of God, singing praises before the Most High God. I pray that God make this good in a big way, that Jason’s heart would shine as a huge beacon – a beacon of love – a light shining to point the way to the heart of God.

So many people at the memorial service…nearly 500. And Alina’s was huge, too.

They impacted so many lives.

I just pray that their lives will be like a pebble in a pond with ripples radiating out from them, from their lives, that their lives would impact the entire world.

It’s just so tough on us who are left behind. I don’t know how to do this. I don’t want to have to do this.

© 2011 Rebecca R. Carney

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About Rebecca Carney - One Woman's Perspective

My name is Becky Carney. My husband, Joe, and I have been married for 40 years. We have two living children, Eric (37) and Jenna (32). We lost a baby in utero at 19 weeks in 1987. In 2002, our middle son, Jason (19), and his best friend, Alina (20), were broadsided by a drunk driver who was going at least twice the speed limit. They both died instantly. This blog is written from my perspective as a bereaved parent. I don't claim to know what it's like to walk in anyone else's shoes. Each situation is different; each person is different. Everyone handles grief differently. But if I can create any degree of understanding of what it's like to be a parent who has lost a child, then I have succeeded in my reason for writing this blog.

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