Wake me when the nightmare’s over

From my journal dated June 17, 2002:

Last night I dreamed I was watching a VHS movie on one television and a DVD movie on another television at the same time. They were side by side. I hated the movies that were on, and I kept trying to stop both the VCR and DVD players. No matter what I did, I couldn’t get them to stop. I kept trying and trying, and I was getting so frustrated because nothing I did worked.

When I woke up, my first conscious thought was what a weird, funny dream…and I chuckled at it. But then reality sinks back in, and I realized it was a reflection of this reality I’m stuck with…that Jason is gone and I can’t change it. Seems to me like my frustration with not being able to change things is seeping into my dreams.

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About Rebecca Carney - One Woman's Perspective

My name is Becky Carney. My husband, Joe, and I have been married for 40 years. We have two living children, Eric (37) and Jenna (32). We lost a baby in utero at 19 weeks in 1987. In 2002, our middle son, Jason (19), and his best friend, Alina (20), were broadsided by a drunk driver who was going at least twice the speed limit. They both died instantly. This blog is written from my perspective as a bereaved parent. I don't claim to know what it's like to walk in anyone else's shoes. Each situation is different; each person is different. Everyone handles grief differently. But if I can create any degree of understanding of what it's like to be a parent who has lost a child, then I have succeeded in my reason for writing this blog.

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