From my journal dated June 17, 2002:
Last night I dreamed I was watching a VHS movie on one television and a DVD movie on another television at the same time. They were side by side. I hated the movies that were on, and I kept trying to stop both the VCR and DVD players. No matter what I did, I couldn’t get them to stop. I kept trying and trying, and I was getting so frustrated because nothing I did worked.
When I woke up, my first conscious thought was what a weird, funny dream…and I chuckled at it. But then reality sinks back in, and I realized it was a reflection of this reality I’m stuck with…that Jason is gone and I can’t change it. Seems to me like my frustration with not being able to change things is seeping into my dreams.
Grief: One Woman's Perspective 