From my journal dated September 18, 2002:
Today was the first day “Jason” things came back full-force…a “trigger” that would reach pierce my heart and hurt like crazy. It was like when we were in Hawaii everything was new and different – different places, different scenes, different things surrounding us. When we got back here, everything is in our faces again.
As I wrote a note for Eric on the whiteboard in the kitchen, I could visualize all the notes we left for Jason and that he had left for us over the years. Later, as I slid into the car to leave, the seat was in a similar position to when Jason drove. He liked to have the seat slightly inclined back. He helped pick out that car when we bought it. Maybe if he’d been driving that car instead of his things would have turned out differently.