From my journal dated November 24, 2002:
Today was a really hard day for both Joe and me. They dedicated three babies at church this morning. I’m really happy for the families, but it’s just hard. Every time the pastor talks about the special relationship between a father and the child, the mother and the child, or prays for God’s blessing and protection for the child, it fills me with a sad longing.
Why didn’t God protect Jason? We dedicated Jason to God. We prayed for him. I don’t understand it. I don’t know that I ever will.