My husband and I are going back to Seattle for Christmas this year. It’s been three years since we’ve been there. Although we no longer actually have a physical home there, Seattle will always feel like home to me. It’s never an easy thing to do, this going back to the “home” that used to be, the one that remained after Jason died.
I know that there will be times when we will be in places that are poignantly familiar. I know that, at times, there may be triggers. We will go to visit Jason’s grave. I know that we will miss Jason like crazy.
As I cleaned closets today, one of the songs that came on my iTunes was a song sung by Jimmy Durante – “I’ll be Seeing You.” It brought tears to my eyes.
I’ll be seeing you
In all the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces
All day throughIn that small cafe
The park across the way
The children’s carousel
The chestnut trees, the wishing wellI’ll be seeing you
In every lovely summers day
In everything that’s light and gay
I’ll always think of you that wayI’ll find you in the morning sun
And when the night is new
I’ll be looking at the moon
But I’ll seeing you.
Songwriters: Irving Kahal / Sammy FainI’ll Be Seeing You lyrics © BMG Rights Management